to a close friend

to my dearest friend,

i hope this reaches you well. i know it hurts inside my dear. i feel you hurting though i don't show it. i really don't know what else to do. i would take it as my own if it helps ease the pain. please don't be blaming yourself or feel second best. you are worth so much more, take it from me. it's not your fault that he did what he did. neither is it your fault that the marriage was shaken. it was his period. the selfish bastard fucked up! it's that simple. though im aware that even if its his fault, its you thats gonna bear the consequence. i know you are dying a little inside every day, and things can't be the way it use to be, as much as you wish it could. it's ok to be weak for now, we are only human, but know that you'll need to pull yourself out of it eventually. i can't decide for you but i'll be here like a soldier for you. you'll need to move on. and time is your only cure. you'll wake up one day and it won't hurt as much. but for now, take each step at a time. im behind you each step of the way. it's gonna be alright my dear.

hugs.

ju-hann