my huge lil heart

it's really about time i announced this. this ain't fucking show and tell. why? to do everyone justice, me included. i'm not ashamed about us. if you ask, i will tell. truth is, i am happy with her. firstly, we don't owe anyone any explanation. but if you have to know, why her and not anyone else? i'm not gonna put icing on this cake and look at you starry eyed. just plain raw honesty. i don't intend to lose friends because of us, but if that is neccessary, then so be it.

sure, she ain't no angelina jolie, but really, neither am i brad pitt. and she knows that. the best part is, i don't have to try to be brad pitt when i'm with her. she doesn't ask for it. she makes me comfortable being in my own skin, allowing me to be plain ol' simple joey khor. and trust me, joey khor is much more to cope with than any brad pitt or tom cruise put together. i could do better? no lor, trust me. on the contrary, i think she could.

i'm not saying its been a fucking fairy tale like it's some lovey dovey shit. it's not like the fucking love fairy sprinkled excessive love dust. we have our disputes too; hell, i happen to make her cry within the first few days. but you see, she makes me wanna compromise. she makes me wanna be better for the both of us. it's feelings like this that shouldn't be asked or said, but i need to feel it on my own. we just kinda started out right.

maybe we'll last a lifetime, maybe we won't. but unlike most past relationships i've had, i really wanna make this work. i don't need you to congratulate. no need to be happy for me either. either way, i already am.